Tuesday, December 28, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Maybe Christmas Doesn't Come From a Store...

Maybe Christmas, he thought, means a little bit more :)

Thank you Grinch. I think this is my third blog post with a title from that movie, but I'm going to go with it.

I think this Christmas for me was an embodiment of this statement. No, we didn't have a large green individual come and take all of our presents and Christmas decorations, but I feel this year was much more centered on family. I gotta say, I loved it. This year we did a white elephant exchange for the adults. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time. Everyone in my family over the age of 14 joined in and laughed for probably 45 minutes straight. This was an awesome new tradition, and one that I think my family will carry on throughout the years.

So in a nutshell, I love my family. I love Christmas time and the spirit of giving. I love giving presents that you're fairly certain someone else will absolutely love. Most of all I love having Christ be the center of it all. I hope you all had a very merry Christmas :)
Monday, December 13, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Yesteryear...

This weekend was a blast from the past. I stepped into 2008 and was completely weirded out, while at the same time I was completely jazzed about it.

I had the opportunity to hang out with a couple friends that have come home from missions, and because of their return a bunch of friends whom I don't get to see very often. Needless to say, it was pretty fantastic. I got to reminisce and see old friends, but that wasn't the best part. The best part for me was a realization. What might this realization be, you ask? It's this.

High school was great, and I have to say that I enjoyed it fully while I was in it; however, I am beyond ecstatic over the fact that I have grown. It was interesting to note how different I am from my high school self. Hanging out with my old friends was great, and we could still laugh and have a fabulous time, but I am different and I love it. Maybe I am a bit of a narcissist or something, but every time I stop and think about it, I am happy with the change that has occurred in my life, and in myself. I love that I can move beyond the last phase of my life. I've moved beyond high school, old crushes and old drama, moved past the frustrations that plagued me in those years. I decided this as I drove to Logan and left South Jordan behind.

I will always be able to go back and visit yesteryear and enjoy those memories, but I am not stuck in them. Isn't that fantastic? I didn't even realize that I had done this until I was faced with some of the things of yesteryear. I'm very happy with myself for realizing that I can grow and learn. I guess I'm fascinated with the idea of growing up or something, but it's great isn't it? I think yes.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

The Light at the End of the Tunnel!

I can see it!

School is so close to being over. All I have to do is whip out three final papers, two final exams and one portfolio and I am home free!

I can do this. Right?
Monday, November 22, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Some Nights...

I just can't seem to fall asleep.

Tonight is one of those nights.

Sometimes I wish blogging could help me fall asleep like it helps me procrastinate homework, but that just isn't the case.

In other news I think I'm giving myself an ulcer. I say this a lot, but I really think it's true. I stress about stupid things, and I think about the past far too often. In case you were wondering.
Friday, November 19, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Dear Family,

I am missing you terribly this weekend!

From going to the new Harry Potter movie at Midnight with you guys, to the Bingham Miner's football Final against Fremont. This isn't even to mention the kiddies growing up right under my nose, or the prep for Thanksgiving (which I actually really do like). At any rate, I am feeling particularly homesick at the moment. Hopefully, if I can plan well enough I will be home Wednesday, Thursday and then again Saturday and Sunday :) I am ridiculously happy that I get to be there for Thanksgiving (if only for the actual dinner part). I thought I would let all of you know that I love and miss you. Two and half ish years of being at USU has taught me a tiny bit more about appreciating things that mean the most. And my dear family, you mean the world to me. I hope you know this, but in case you don't I'll say it again. I love you all so much! So this is for my family.

Jeremy
Chelsea
Jacob
Cohen
Carlie
Lisa
Jed
Jayna
Logan
Lucas
Heather
Mindy
Gavin
Mom
Pops

I love you.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

For all two of you...

I thought that I would let you know that I don't know what to do or think. I feel like I've somehow messed up things but I don't know how. Usually I'm pretty good at placing blame on things like school, timing, lack of sleep and other such random excuses. At the moment I feel like I've just made a mess of a lot of things and I don't know what to do.

In case you were wondering.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

One-hundred and Fifty

That is how many blog posts I've done! Woot for never doing homework! And how will I commemorate this momentous occasion? A list of course!

1. Old Navy. I work there now. Gotta say I'm still figuring things out. It's not too bad though; however, when I ask customers if they're finding everything alright and they answer in affirmative, I wish I could say "Really? Well then, could you help me? Because I've been looking for this one shirt for probably 20 minutes and I still don't know where it goes..." Eventually I find out from a manager that it's a men's shirt and I've been looking in the woman's section for a really long time.

2. Utah State University. I think I've ranted enough about registration, but just one more word on the subject... Ridiculous. Anyway, school is going fairly well. I think. And hope. I really won't find out until the week after finals. I guess that's ok though.

3. Family. I miss them a lot. Especially when they're growing right under my nose!

4. Friends. I like them a lot. Especially when they come to visit.

5. Holidays. I dunno if I'm very excited about those. I may or may not even be home for Thanksgiving and I plan on being in Logan for the entire duration of Christmas break. Sad day huh?

6. I'm not sure what else to write. Sorry if my One Hundred and Fiftieth blog post wasn't very exciting. Thanks for reading all the same!
Tuesday, November 9, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

I'd Rather Be Blogging...

So I am. Instead of doing homework.

Have you ever felt just little disjointed? Like things are just slightly off, but only enough to be barely recognizable, therefore enough to drive one crazy?

I think I've felt like that lately. It's very obnoxious.

In other news, I'm sitting in the library, slightly frozen, listening to pandora (which hasn't been doing the greatest job at finding songs that I really want to listen to...) I have a paper due at 9:30 tomorrow morning and I have the smallest paragraph that has my thesis... but all in all it's already crappy. I don't want to be at the library. I thought it would be such a good idea. It wasn't.

I'm going home.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

I Write Lists...

Because I like crossing things off said list. However, on my blog I like to write lists for apparently no reason at all. So, here we go!

WHY is it that hindsight is 20/20? Why couldn't foresight be 20/20? I hate looking back at things and knowing exactly what I should have done. This has been bugging me a lot lately (and by "lately" I mean predominately for the past two years).

In relation to this, I wish I could know what was going to be discussed in my classes. Most of the time it's interesting and insightful in the majority of my classes, but today one of my class discussions revolved around violent video games and everything that that brings out argument-wise. Definitely a class I could have skipped (mostly because I've had that discussion ten billion times in various psychology classes).

I dislike writing a paper, re-writing said paper, revising paper, and repeating only to find myself staring at a paper that I positively hate and the only thing I can do about it is turn it in and hope for the best.

Today I bought a watch. I can't decide if I like it or not.

Working + School = Very Little time for anything except work and school. Who woulda thunk it? (Just as a side note- the word "thunk" does not have a red squiggly line underneath it... is that a real word? Or the right conjugation of the word "think?")

I just looked up the word "thunk," which is a word defined as an abrupt, dull sound. So yes and no. It is a word, however it is not the proper conjugation of the word "think"- the proper conjugation would in fact be "thought."

I feel like I had more to write about, but I can't remember (even with writing what I wanted to put on this blog post...) Oh well. I hope you enjoyed!
Saturday, October 30, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Dear Halloween,

When I was younger you and I were pals. I always had a fantastic costume (thanks to a fantastic mother who made them year after year) I had siblings or friends to go trick-or-treating with (and the option to do so without feeling completely dumb or looking like a creeper) and of course the free candy that always came from said trick-or-treating adventures.

Nowadays those times are pretty much over, except for the costumes that I have swiped from home, the warm and fuzzy feelings you and I once shared have in a nutshell disappeared entirely. This makes me sad. I feel like I've lost a very important moment from my life from not experiencing Halloween like I used to.

I think next year I will go home just for you and have a grand time with my family.

I think I should have learned this from my first Halloween in Logan (which was probably the lamest most uneventful holiday of my life- my roommate and I played blockus the entire night...)
Saturday, October 16, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

For the Life of Me...

I cannot concentrate! My sister gets home on Tuesday. I start a new job on Monday. I'm skipping out on school all next week and I can't seem to focus on the homework that I really need to do. It's frustrating me, but at the same time I just can't bring myself to focus.

So here I am... on the internet. All I really need to do is read a couple things for a paper I need to start (and by a couple things I mean two twenty page Literary Critical Analysis about a piece of African Literature... No big deal right?) and then the paper is only 3-4 pages yeah? I'm probably going to die, but I'm so freaking excited for my sister to come home, and to be able to have a job! GAH! Anyway, I thought I'd share. Now that I've gotten that out of my system, perhaps I can get something done. Probably not. Shoot.
Monday, October 11, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Missionaries!

First, I wanted to keep a little tradition alive. When all of my guy friends left on their missions I wrote them a little something on my blog and I certainly don't want to leave out my favorite person to blog stalk :)

Merrit! I don't think you realize what an amazing example you've been- even just through your blog. I love your words and I'm thrilled that I will be able to continue blog stalking you and your adventures. I can't really guarantee a ton of letters, BUT I will promise prayers. I know you will have the very time of your life. You are amazing! :D I just thought I'd let you know before you shipped off across the world.

In other news....

My sister, Soeur Mindy Anne Leavitt will be home in EIGHT DAYS. I think every time I've talked to my mom she's told me the number on the countdown and I just can't quite wrap my head around it. This is pretty much the greatest ever :D
Sunday, October 10, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

I Write Stuff on My Phone...

And then forget to put it on my blog. So here's a list of stuff I've written down on my cellular device. (Sorry if these are random... haha welcome to my life).

Repentance isn't a lamb going to the slaughter (even though it may feel like that). It's the sheep finding their way back to the shepherd.

Why are Utah State Aggies blue? It's because we live in Logan and we're always so freaking cold.

Things have stopped 'reminding' me of you. I no longer need a reminder. You're simply always there; seated in my mind and housed in my heart.

I don't need to know what is coming, I just need to know if I'm on the right path to get there. (This made me think of Hymn #97 "I do not ask to see the distant scene-- one step enough for me").

Je suis revenu.

Heavenly Father is just waiting to teach us how to make something as powerful and spectacular as lightning, and something as gentle and fantastic as a rainbow. (I remember writing this after watching lightning at my house for like an hour with my little brother. There were a lot of storms this summer in South Jordan and I was able to see some breathtaking lightning displays, and quite a few huge rainbows... the result was this little blurb in my phone).

Considering it is Sunday I thought most of these were fairly appropriate. I hope you all have (or had as the case may be) a beautiful sabbath.
Saturday, October 9, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Till Kingdom Come

I've had this song stuck in my head all day. I couldn't tell you why, but it's an exceptional song. In fact, I really love it. The lyrics, the melody, all of it. It's beautiful. This is how I feel.

Til Kingdom Come
by Coldplay

Steal my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheels just keeps on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

Thursday, September 30, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Dear Lisa

How's this? I changed it just for you so let me know what you think. Still squinting at the page? Let me know :)

Sincerely,

Megan
Wednesday, September 29, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Tell all the Truth but tell it slant--

In all reality I don't have much to say about this particular subject. Emily Dickinson is hard to comprehend, but I liked it and thought it would be a good at grabbing your attention. Did it work? Now that I've lured you in under false pretenses let me blather about nothing in particular.

My brain is going to explode. I have at least six different novels swimming around up there, each one vying for a place in the forefront of my brain. They're fighting extremely hard, and in the meantime I'm developing these ugly wrinkles on my forehead from trying to sort out every piece of literature I've read in the last month- which includes Isaiah (because apparently 3 Literature classes weren't enough for me, I had to throw Isaiah in there just to keep things interesting). So there's an epic battle raging on, more often than not Isaiah wins out, or African Lit, and then sometimes Multicultural Lit; however, Literary Realism ALWAYS loses.

Anyway, this leaves little to no room for thinking about anything else, and on reflecting about this it's probably a better thing. I've thought too much about life, I think I am ok with thinking about literature and absolutely nothing else. Think I'm getting to a point? Not quite.

So all of this is going on and then I have to read yet another book. This book isn't one assigned for class, and not one scripture based either. No, this is a book that I have anticipated reading for probably a year or so. That's right the finale to The Hunger Games series- Mockingjay. This book blew my mind. Not only the context (which could be described as horrifying and disturbing) but also the literary elements put to use. Irony, diction, symbolism... did I mention irony? All of this is used to combine three novels that encompass the human psychology as well as human nature at its very worst into a cohesive if not somewhat sad story.

Needless to say this book and all of its elements have taken over my mind. If you haven't read these books, I suggest you do... unless you need space in your brain for other things. I've decided I don't really need space in my brain for other things.

I remember from a movie (I think it's Ever After) someone saying people read so they do not have to think for themselves, or possibly because they cannot think for themselves. I could argue on either side of this statement. Sometimes I read simply to forget about my life, to submerge myself in the story of some other time, place and person. So sometimes I do read so as to not have to think for myself. However, much more often I read to generate more ideas. I read to understand something, or more specifically someone else. I read to explore other places and then think about why it is significant.

I read to understand.

I must say I think I've read more in the last month than I have in the past six months, and I've thought more about what I'm reading, past simply what is going on in the story. I guess it really has been blowing my mind, but it's also been expanding my way of thinking.

My ultimate goal in pursuing Education as a career is to help other people understand other people. I think through this semester I am learning how to do that more effectively in reading. I guess if that means my head explodes and I have little to no time to think of anything else, I'm ok with that. Maybe if I understand other people better I can eventually understand my own life. Probably not, but it's worth a try. Sorry about the rambling. Congrats if you made it to the end of this post, I know I almost didn't. Anyway... Happy Wednesday!


And just as a side note, my little brother tells me that nut shell is one word. Is this true? Nutshell? The little red line didn't show up so it must be true. Darn it all... my fifteen year old brother out Englishes me again! Props to Gavin if he ever sees this.
Sunday, September 26, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

A Moment to Complain

Sometimes I have days where I just want someone to take care of me. These days always come when something goes wrong with my car. Or if I have to anything with my car really.

You'd think these days where I just want someone to take care of me would come when I'm sick (and granted, they do, just not to the same level) but I've found that I've been perfectly able to take care of myself when I've been sick (although, it's pretty pathetic to go to the store to buy yourself medicine and saltines and 7 Up, I'm just saying from past experience). When it comes to car stuff I'll basically assume the fetal position and just worry about it, but never really do anything about it.

The most recent example of this? I need to register my car. I have put it off and put it off. I'm scared it won't pass inspection and so I've just put it off, and steadily it's just getting worse... I know it's just a matter of getting my car to a shop and then dragging myself to the DMV, but all of this seems so daunting to me. I couldn't tell you why, but it's worse than pulling teeth- my own teeth at that. Anyway, I guess I'm just going to have to buck up and get to it. Silly cars.
Sunday, September 19, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Things I've learned from College: A series of comments

21. English Major = Lots of reading. Once again, who knew?

22. I have a new respect for people who commute to school. I only live slightly out of the way and I find myself grumbling about it daily. I have a new found respect for people who don't live near the campus they attend.

23. Not having a bed frame isn't such a big deal (I guess this might be more of a life lesson rather than a secular education lesson, but college taught it to me).

24. Blogging, as always is a great deviant from homework. I enjoy it.

25. I still love the Ray B. West even though it's completely secluded.
Thursday, September 16, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Things that I think about...

A list! This is a list of things that went through my head. (If they sound like things that could be posted as a facebook status, that's not a coincidence. Sometimes that's how my brain thinks.)

Who knew that riding the bus could be so productive. I think I've finished at least one book just while riding the bus. (This thought was stemmed from an attempt at being positive about the fact that it takes like twenty minutes to ride the bus from my apartment to campus).

Hello grasshopper! (Yes, I really thought this today when one hopped past me).

Hunger won out and I'm going home. (I thought I could stay all day on campus with just two granola bars. How wrong I was).

Sometimes I look cute (And my sisters would be very proud of me).

I wish I had more homework (Probably the dumbest thought I've had ever, but I found myself completely done with everything assigned and then I realized that I had nothing to do with life).

African Lit- BRING IT ON! (I finished another draft of a paper for this class, it's not due till tomorrow so there should be a couple more between now and then).

I wish I could read on the quad without having to walk five minutes out of my way. I guess in front of the weird hand statue will suffice. (They have in essence completely secluded the quad and the Ray B. West and Family Life Building. And by "they" I mean the genius's in charge of construction at USU).

I'm sure I had more thoughts (hopefully some vastly more intelligent that these ones) but these are the ones I felt like sharing. Enjoy?
Wednesday, September 15, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Dear C.S. Lewis

This could possibly sum up a lot of my feelings from the past couple months.

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The Alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.
Monday, September 6, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

If I could have one wish...

It would be to have the ability to make the exact sound that the lizard thing that Obi-Wan rides around makes in Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith. This isn't the first time I've thought about this. I've discussed this at length with my siblings, but as I sat alone in my apartment and watched the Star Wars Saga by myself I decided that could quite possibly be the highlight of my life. Making that crazy sound.

That's when I realized that I was sitting alone in my apartment watching Star Wars. If you're in Logan, Ut and know me... please give me a call. The last couple days of kind of been pathetic.

I still however, love that sound that the lizard thing makes.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

So...

I've really wanted to blog for a while. The only thing stopping me (aside from the lack of internet at my current abode) is a killer subject. Ok, maybe not killer... but just a subject period.

I thought about documenting my family adventure at Bear Lake, but I seriously need pictures for that, which my dad has failed to supply me with.

I thought about writing a about my first week/day of school, but it hasn't been that fantastic so I skipped over that.

I thought about writing some spiritually groundbreaking something or other, but the lightning has yet to strike with that one.

So instead I write about nothing. Hope you enjoyed.
Monday, August 23, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Reach for the Moon

... even if you miss you'll land among the stars.

I hate this saying.

If I'm going to reach for anything, it will not be the moon. It will be the sun. And I will not miss.

Reaching for the moon is settling for less. I refuse to reach for the moon, and the stars are unacceptable as well.

I want the brightest and the best. I refuse anything else.
Thursday, August 5, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

P.S.

I'M 20! I can't quite wrap my head around it. I think I will always think I'm 17, but now I am no longer a teenager. There are probably deeper and more profound things to come of contemplating this, but for now it's just weird to me.

My mom asked me how old I was today. I'm pretty sure it was a test, cause for the last three years I've said "Seventee... I mean [insert appropriate age here]" Today, however, I proudly said "Twenty! No longer a teenager." This is how I figure things are:

My technical age is 20.

In my head I'll always be 17.

In real life I'm 6.

I think I may be confused :) Haha but still not a teenager!

I Just Can't Resist

I know I talk a lot about my nieces and nephews on here, but I can't help it. They're pretty much the greatest. I was babysitting my sister's kids the other day and we were playing outside and the kiddies were on the swing set. The youngest, Mr. Lucas Jeffery proceeded to try to climb up onto the swing, without much success. So I put him on there and went back and sat down. I was seriously tired and couldn't seem to wake up properly, so I wasn't exactly jumping at the chance to get up and do much, but there are a few things I just can't resist:

A big hug.

A piece of chocolate.

And a two year old with the deepest blue eyes looking up at me and saying "Push me Meggie!" So I went over and started pushing. Another thing I can't resist "Higher Meggie!" Of course I push him as high as I think is safe and then comes the sugary sweet cherry on top. The biggest toothy grin and... "Thank you Meggie!"

And then repeat. For probably twenty minutes.

I really do love kids, and I've had so many opportunities to witness what little miracles they are.

If you didn't already know, I've been teaching swimming lessons to 3-10 year old kids. I gotta say that lately it's been trying my patience. A lot. But there are always brilliant shining moments that reminds me that I really do want to be a mom someday. I'll share one with you.

For kids that are three years old they have a half hour long class. There's usually three kids in the class and they are usually pretty good kids (there is always the occasionally crier, and there was even one little boy that threw a full on tantrum in the water... but that's another story) anyway, a couple days ago for one of my half hour classes we had a fourth student and it was her very first time swimming. She was not excited. She was so tiny for a three year old, and very vocal about the fact that she did not want to be in the pool. For these overly vocal students we pull out the big guns. Distraction. Water toys. So each kid got a toy and little Ashlynne (the screamer) calmed down. When we got to Holland's turn to go (a little girl that has attended swimming lessons for the entire summer- along with her cute siblings; I taught her older sister, anyway), she quickly hopped up, offered her toy to Ashlynne and proceeded to tell me how cute she thought Ashlynne was. When Holland's turn was over, she proceeded to tell Ashlynne herself what a cutie she thought Ashlynne was. I dunno why, but this almost made me cry. I've never wanted to hug one of my students so much. Holland has always been super sweet, but this was such an accurate display of that sweetness that I was blown away.

So in a nut shell, I guess I just can't resist these little kids. My running joke for the summer has been to say that hanging out with all these little kids is making me change my life plan. I think it's a true statement. It's made me want to be ready to have my own kids, and know how to take care of them and help them become as sweet as the kids I've gotten to play with this summer. It's also made me rethink the number of kids I want- haha the number went down instead of up in case you were wondering. Anyway, I do love kids and I'm glad I get to play with them for another couple weeks before I go back to the grown up world.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Megan's Fun-O-Meter

I think I have funny outlooks on things, and this is one that I've thought a lot about. I think you can guage how fun something was based on a few simple things.

First: how big of a freakout after said fun thing. Mostly this applies to little kids (but some adults do this as well). The more tears they cry, the harder they fight to stay and do whatever fun thing they're doing, the more fun the activity was.

For example: Parents tell kids it's time to go home from the park, the kids whine a little, but they go willingly to the car. Therefore the park wasn't that much fun. On the other hand, when parents say it's time to go home after a sweet awesome day of hanging out with their favorite aunt and they scream and cry and break down, this means It was an exceptionally great day.

Second: how good your chaco tan line is. Haha I think this one is just funny. It doesn't mean you need chacos to have fun, but it means that if you have them, and the tan line you have from playing outside in them is good then you've had a good time.

For example: Spending a weekend in Moab, Utah with my favorite person and going down the river means a better tan line, which means a ton of fun :)

Third: how well you sleep after a fun activity. If you hit the pillow and are out, this means you've had a great day.

For example: After a weekend of river rafting, laughing, eating, driving, and a little bit of swimming and you're out before you know what happens... this means a ridiculous amount of fun (not to mention happiness).

So far those are the only ones I have, but it's been fun to think about these. Now you know how to figure out if you've had a good day or not! Haha
Sunday, June 27, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

This is Me

(I found this scribbled on a piece of paper and shoved in a random place, and when I re-read it I liked it a lot. It's short and sweet and to the point so... enjoy!)

This is Me

Awkward, quirky, imperfect to the max, emotional, sometimes silly, and often scared, but that's me. I believe in loving people for who they are, but more importantly for who they have the ultimate potential to become (if this wasn't the case my younger brother would be dead ten million times over- well I guess that and the whole against the law thing, but whichever haha). I ask for forgiveness, but only as freely as I give it. I work for what I want, which is always what I love and I work to be my best.
Friday, June 25, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

It's just like riding a bike

I like this phrase. For some things it's true, you just don't forget how to do them. Riding a bike is definitely one of them. However, I think the phrase "It's just like playing the piano" should also be a phrase, but it should be for things that are not easily remembered. I've found that going two plus years without a piano has really limited my piano playing abilities. I can't remember a lot of the theory and the actually execution for me has become nearly painful. Now, don't take this the wrong way, I was never proficient in playing the piano, but I could definitely hold my own. Sadly, I have tried my hand at the piano this summer and it hasn't gone over too well (I think my little brother is close to issuing a written plea for me to cease and desist).

That's why I think there should be the phrase "It's just like playing the piano" for things that are easily forgotten, or I suppose things that need to be constantly practiced.

I found myself relating this to the gospel. I think the gospel is just like playing the piano. It is easily forgotten without the hours of practice that parents may at first have forced us to complete. It's far too easy to forget how to pray without actually praying, or fall further from the scriptures without actually picking them up on a regular basis. This was just a tidbit that I had in my head.

The gospel is just like playing the piano. Who would think you'd have to practice and persist?
Monday, June 21, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Dear Jackson Hole, Wyoming...

I forgot how much I miss you!

So this past weekend was pretty great. I took a trip with 20 people, only two of which I really knew. I think one of the biggest reasons I had so much fun was because I was out of my comfort zone. I went and had a blast with a bunch of people that I didn't know at all, and I loved it. Usually I don't like being in a group with people I don't know, but this was different. I feel like I met people that I could be friends with, and not just for that one weekend of whitewater adventures.

Anyway, I love Wyoming and I think this was a growing experience for me (which is always a good thing) and Wyoming is never a disappointment. A fantastic weekend all around :)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Today...

I am going to have a great day even if it kills me. So far I don't know what is on the agenda but I am bound and determined to have an awesome day. Just thought I would let all two of you know.
Saturday, June 5, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

New and Improved!

Last summer I wrote a list of things that I wanted. I think for this summer it's a fairly similar list, with a couple things added and a few alterations. So...

I want...
-To find new and improved ways of being happy.
-To find fun ways to exercise.
-To quickly find a second job.
-To not be too nervous to teach little kids how to swim.
-To sing, let others hear it, and love it :)
-To learn new hymns on the piano (cause hymns really are the only thing I can play, and I'm ok with that.)
-To smile, even when I want to frown (or even when I'm really tired).
-To learn how to run without hurting myself and without looking ridiculous.
-To write until I can't feel my my hands.
-To use my chacos and maintain the outdoorsy-ish status... haha.
-To go to the temple once a week.
-To read all 63 books on my summer reading list that I wrote for myself.
-To live in Boston one day.
-To be published, whether thats a book, an article or even a poem.
-To have kids and pets :)
-To love as much as I can.

These are things that I want :)
Monday, May 31, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Hey, Me Too Marilyn

"I'm selfish, impatient, a little insecure, I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times, I'm hard to handle. But, if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

-Marilyn Monroe

Kudos to Kirena Allen, I stole this from her.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Fear

Ok, don't judge me, but I've recently finished reading the Fablehaven series... for the second time. Yes, your ten to twelve year old sibling is probably reading that too. Good for them, because it is an excellent book. So don't judge.

Anyway, an aspect of this book has been nagging at my brain for a while now and so I figured I'd get it out of my brain and onto the web. I guess it works out, sorta. In this series the main characters are nine year old Seth, and fourteen year old Kendra. They face random and fantastical challenges (which I will not give away at this time, just in case you decide you want a diversion from the everyday) but at one point Seth faces a demon which incapacitates him with a debilitating fear. Quite literally he can't move. When he finds the will to move, however each movement he makes takes a thousand times more energy to do than it normally would. This "magical fear" stops every character in their tracks- literally.

You might scoff and say "Psh, what a kids book Megan- magical fear that makes it so you can't move at all? Duh." But I couldn't help but make a connection. In all honesty I don't think anyone that reads this can say that they haven't felt something like this. Fear creeps into every aspect of life, even things that should be wonderful and exciting; you feel your stomach begin to sink and your heart races, and you can't move. You don't act.

I feel like everyone has something very similar to this fear. Sometimes it really does make one physically unable to move. For others it is the fear to move forward in the less literal sense. To make progress for better. Far too often we stay stagnant because of a debilitating fear that courses through the human body. I've been thinking about it and I no longer want fear to govern my actions. It has in the past, and I can recognize that it has created problems and made things more difficult. Today, however, I want nothing to do with this fear. If you still feel like this kids book is just for kids, I dare you to read it. The undercurrents of this book are amazing and tell a story all it's own. I want to diminish this fear. I figure if a fictional nine year old boy can overcome magical fear and progress forward into an unknown fate, so can I (probably with less demons though). I want to move forward with my life, with courage and purpose. So, that's just what has been on my mind. Continue to judge if you must, but I'm ok with reading kids books. More often than not it's simple things that teach us the most profound lessons, and I found one here.
Friday, May 21, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

I Write for Myself

Today (or I guess technically this morning, however the case may be) I had an epiphany. I was reading some old journals (which seems to be a pastime I enjoy while being home cause I've done it a lot) I realized something. I write for myself. This is exceptionally true of my journals because if anyone else read them they would find the rant of a girl anywhere from age 8 to 19. For me, however, it's more than that.

It never ceases to amaze me the impact my own writing has had on me. I know that my writing will have little to no affect on anyone else in the world, but it kills me how many times I've read something that I previously wrote and thought that it was something that I desperately needed to hear- and more that that, if anyone else but myself had said or written those things I would have never listened!

So I guess this is me writing to myself in some future time or something. I write to myself and I'm good with that. So if you're reading this, it's appreciated, and don't get me wrong I like that you're reading it, just know this isn't a lecture for you. In all reality this is probably something I'll need to hear at some other time.

I apologize if this is weird. You'll also have to take into account that it's two in the morning as I write this.
Thursday, May 13, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Staying Positive

I have recently moved home, and for me it hasn't been the most thrilling thing in the entire world. In fact, I have been going insane and haven't really been trying very hard to make an effort to stay positive. Today that changed and of course the result is a list. Most often I think in blog posts and so this is what I've been thinking.

A list of things I love about South Jordan Land:

1. Being reintroduced to old friends and deciding to be better friends. Merrit Denison and I went on a beautiful hike this morning and I have to say that in the last week it's the happiest I've been.

2. My little brother. Gavin is 14 and is the wittiest 14 year old I know. And yes, he can get on my nerves severely, but I like to hang out with him. I love seeing the person he's becoming and not gonna lie I'm kinda jealous. He has sweet awesome electric guitar skills and is basically a genius. He's pretty ok :)

3. My entire family. Sorry fam that Gavin got his own little segment, but I am currently living with him. That doesn't mean that I'm not excited to be closer to my whole family over all. I'm happy that I won't be missing fun things with my extended family as well. I missed too much last summer.

4. Finding less stress at home. I do this through reading good books- good books that my 14 year old brother tells me to read. Don't judge.

5. Warmer weather. It's just warmer here than in Logan or Jackson. It's good.

6. Going to Lagoon for free :)

I'm sure there's more, but that's all the positive attitude I can suck out of myself for today.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

The Tighter I Hold On....

The more it feels like everything slips out of my control. I've been home for two days and I don't know if I can handle it. I've applied for jobs (jobs that I was fairly certain I would get) and most of them have fallen through, so I've applied for more. And more. And now I feel like it's out of my hands.

In fact, I feel like nothing is in my control. Some people say that if you feel like you're in control, you're not driving fast enough. Right now I don't even feel like I'm driving at all. I don't even feel like I'm riding shot-gun. I've never felt like things are so utterly out of my hands, and you know what? I hate it. I'm not an enormous control freak, but I would like to be in control of a few things in my life, and at the moment I don't think I am.

One time I wrote that I felt like everything I had been planning and hoping for had been thrown out the window- not even all my planning, but I felt like I was flailing hopelessly out the window as well.

This is how I feel. Perfect.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Happiness

Of all the emotions I've had running through me in the past week, this one has seemed to be the most elusive.

I've felt sad over the fact that this is probably the last time I will live with one of my greatest friends ever. Miss Megan Fankhauser has not only shared my name, but my apartment for the past two years at USU and I have loved every minute of it. She moved out today, and even though our families live close together I can't help but think that it won't be the same. This makes me sad. I wish her the best in everything she does, and I know she will go and do amazing things, but it still makes me sad.

I've felt an unnerving sense that I don't know what's going to happen and that everything is about to change. I'm not certain of what I want to do in the upcoming year and I feel like everything is hanging precariously just waiting to fall. So I've felt uneasy as well.

I've felt nervous to turn in four papers. I'm fairly confident that they are well written (at least to the best of my abilities) but I couldn't help feel nervous for the outcome- that won't come for another week and a half. So this has made me nervous.

I've felt a lot of frustration. I currently don't have a summer job and everywhere seems to be a dead end.

I've felt ornery.

I've felt crabby, tired, obnoxious, anxious, angry, grateful, silly, and annoyed.

But happiness has seemed a little out of my grasp lately. And then today I read something that made me smile so much I almost cried. There truly are people in the world that work just to make people happy. They take time and effort to glean even the smallest smile for even the tiniest moment. To these people, I offer my heartfelt gratitude. Happiness seems so hard to come by these days, it's so much easier to feel any other dismal emotion. So, for everyone who strives to make someone else's day, for anyone that works to make others happy- Thank you. You set a beautiful example. Happiness may seem hard to come by on your own, but sharing it is probably one of the easiest things in the world. I hope I can share the happiness others have offered to me.
Saturday, May 1, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

I don't know if I like Pop Tarts

If you're a Gilmore Girls junky like I am, you can relate. I feel like Lorelai.

Rory: Are you enjoying your breakfast?
Lorelai: I don't know if I like pop-tarts.
Rory: Did you fall on your head while you were sleeping?
Rory: So you fell on your head and now you have some kind of very specific amnesia is that it?
Lorelai: What if I don't wanna do what I wanna do because I wanna do it, but because they don't want me to?
Rory: Huh?
Lorelai: I mean what if I don't like what I like because I like it but because my mother doesn't like it. And doesn't want me to like it.

So my issue isn't really with Pop Tarts, but it's the same basic principle. I can't seem to figure out what I want, and I think the problem is that I don't know if the things I've done are because I've wanted to do them or if I've done them at someone's suggestion. What if I don't wanna do what I wanna do because I wanna do it, but because someone else wants me to? My version of Lorelai's question. I guess I'll figure it out sooner or later. In the mean time I hope this nagging stomach ache goes away.

Link to clip... Here!
Friday, April 30, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt
Emotionally handicapped, physically ill, mentally unavailable.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Things I Need to Learn....

But never seem to quite get.

I need to learn how to live in the moment. Life is not about tomorrows, life is not about yesterdays, life is about today. To quote The Music Man: Pile up too many tomorrows and you'll find that you've collected nothing but a bunch of empty yesterdays. I don't want empty yesterdays...

I need to learn to speak up. Most of the time I feel like I don't have a strong enough opinion to say anything, so I don't. My philosophy has been that the world already has thousands of loud, obnoxious opinionated people and I'd rather not be labeled as one, but more often than not I'm not heard at all. I'm sure there's a way to speak up and not be obnoxious.

I need to learn how to ask and accept help, especially when I'm stressed. People often offer assistance and I obstinately tell them no thank you, I can handle this myself. This isn't always the best answer.

I need to learn how to fight. Not literally, cause I'd rather not hit anyone anyway, but when it comes to situations that require a fight or flight instinct (and again I don't really mean physically fight). I'd really just rather run away all the time. I think this is another defense mechanism. Things are hard- run away! This should probably change.

I need to learn how to take one thing at a time. Like the song. Just take one step at a time, there's no need to rush. It's like learning to fly or falling in love (neither of which I know how to do anyway...)

I need to learn to smile even when I feel like kicking puppies. Not that I would kick puppies, but that was the first thing that came to mind. Let's rephrase this. I need to learn to smile even when I'm in a bad mood.

I need to learn to be more social. In my head I am content with what I have. I have friends, not tons, but I have a handful of friends that are very dear to me. More often than not I don't feel the urge or the need to meet new people. Maybe I have a social disorder or something (psychology would have everyone believe they have one disorder or another anyway so, why shouldn't this be mine?) but I never feel the need to introduce myself to everyone. Recently, however, I've made a few friends in a couple of my classes (which really, doesn't happen too often) and I think I should open up. More often than not people think I'm stuck up, and I've seen how others could see that to be true. I hope I'm not stuck up and I hope I can change that image.

Needless to say there are billions of things I still need to learn, but these are the ones I decided to showcase today. I guess I still have a lot of work ahead of me.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Jason Mraz

Details in the Fabric

By Jason Mraz

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way


Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way


And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine
Mmmhmm

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way


Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way


And everything, everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way


Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
Monday, March 22, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Spring Break #2

Last year I wrote about Spring Break and how literate my immediate family is. For this post I will once again spotlight my family. I guess I'm pretty boring for not doing anything for yet another Spring Break, but at the same time I'm really happy that I got to go home and hang out with the family (especially the shorter ones in the family, and I don't just mean Heather hehe).

Anyway, I like my family. In all reality, I love my family. Each one has something to bring to the table and it makes life a wonderful meal, so to speak. This post, however, is a tribute to my niece and nephews (as if I don't gush about them enough, but I really can't over them!). These five children (soon to be SIX! Congrats Chelsea!) are amazing, in a nutshell.

So, here is to Jayna, Jacob, Logan, Cohen, and Lucas (and soon to be baby GIRL Leavitt!) I love them all so stinkin much :D

This is usually where I would put in an adorable picture of me and these kids, however I forgot to take one. So in your head imagine 5 crazy little kids and an ultrasound picture haha
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

First Signs of Spring...

And I have a cold. I think this is a classic case of dramatic irony.

Dumb.
Monday, March 8, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Petulant #3

Today I have the overwhelming feeling to ditch class and just take a much needed walk. I feel like my brain has impaled itself. For some reason I've had an abundance of thoughts (I know surprise, surprise), thoughts that I don't necessarily know what to do with. I'm not stressed; school has been busy, but not unmanageably so. Life in Logan as a whole has been pretty ok, but my mind will not turn off. Usually if this happens it's with worries or stresses, but right now it's with planning. I feel like I've relentlessly been trying to plan my life (particularly my summer). I think I'm trying to make myself impossibly busy for the summer.

I really want the next two months to be over. I'm not exceptionally excited about the summer (cause I dunno if there's that much excitement for moving into my older sister's basement...). I am, however, excited about being busy. I have a couple job prospects and a list of at least 50 books or more that I am going to read, and this list gets bigger daily.

I also really want my head to stop planning. I keep thinking of more things that I want to do this summer and frankly, there just aren't enough hours in the day. I've committed myself to watching my sister's kids in the early mornings; she's recently been promoted to head drill coach at Copper Hills High School and therefore has practice from now until the end of time. Anyway, I've committed to that. I also have my foot in the door for a few jobs (yes more than one, cause I'm planning on having more than one job. See the problem with my planning brain?)

I wish I could in reality do everything on my list of "Things I'm Going to do Summer 2010." I am going to try to do the majority of the things, and I've planned out (see more planning) how to fit those things in (for example I will always have the current book that I'm reading on my person, in case I find some down time away from the planned time I have for reading, little things like that).

Not only reading and working and watching my sisters kids for a few hours each morning, I also want to take classes online. See how far this madness is going? My planning brain is driving me up the wall. I've recently discovered a few classes that are offered during the summer which would make graduation that much closer, and I really want to take them. I keep telling my brain that there are only 24 hours in any given day. I know that I'm not good with math, but I do know that part time job + full time job + part time watching kids + full time summer student + hours upon hours of reading = much much more than 24 hours a day, let alone 168 hours a week.

What's more is that I think my brain is trying to compensate for things that I can't plan for. There are so many things that I have absolutely no control over that I think I'm using this as a defense mechanism, I can't have control over various aspects of my life, so I'll plan and take control of every other aspect. This is me psychoanalyzing myself in case you were wondering.

And this is the reason for my wanting to just ditch Shakespeare and go for a walk, swing in a swing, and forget planning. Or even just think of something other than planning. Believe me it goes beyond just the summer too. I have the rest of my semester planned out, which is actually extremely helpful cause then I won't have any kind of panic attack at any point during the semester... hopefully. Anyway, this is my rant of the week.
Friday, March 5, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

What's Your Major Again?

"English"

"Oh, what are you going to do with that?"

"Teach."

*Awkward or weird sound usually accompanied by "Good for you." or "Why?"

And here I am to answer this very question. Why do I want to teach? I've actually spent a ridiculous amount of time thinking about this question. In all reality, what does Shakespeare, Robert Browning, Robert Frost, Brock Dethier or any other writer and their writings have to do with life or how you live it? In my countless hours of thinking over this, agonizing really, I have split it up into two simple answers.

The history books we read are just a script for tomorrow. No I didn't come up with that, it's from a song by Cary Judd. We have to learn from the past, and what other way is there to learn from the past other than reading about it? And not just history. Fiction often portrays things that have happened, just giving it a different face. That seems like a fairly trite answer; "I want student's to learn from the past." But that's a big reason why for me.

The bigger reason, the biggest reason to me to teach is to perpetuate understanding. More importantly, to perpetuate understanding of people; their customs and deep rooted beliefs. In a nut shell (because I could literally go on forever about this, and in effect have gone on forever about this in many a poor notebook) I want to teach how to look out of another persons eyes. If I could help just one person understand one other person, I think it would be worth it. I don't even know exactly why, but understanding generates compassion, and I think I hold compassion in the highest esteem.

This might seem like a visionary or unrealistic way of looking at it, but I often wonder why people don't take a short time to try to understand someone else. I'm as guilty of this as any other person, and I strongly believe that learning to read, and to read well will help in perpetuating understanding. If one of my students could read something, and understand not only the surface meaning, but perhaps the meaning behind it as well then I would feel like I had done a job worth doing.

Reading is only the half of it. We also have to be able to portray our own point of view in an effective way. This way the circle of understanding would be complete. Now I know this is fairly unrealistic, but in my head it makes sense. How many misunderstandings and misinterpretations could be avoided if more people knew how to effectively get their point across and have other people understand where they are coming from.

So I guess I want to teach to perpetuate understanding, and hopefully generate compassion.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Thanks for the Advice, but...

I've recently come to an important conclusion. I am very susceptible to advice, especially from people whom I hold in high esteem. They tell me what they think I should do in a given situation- and granted, sometimes I plead for advice, but other times they give it; and seemingly without thinking of the consequences in my own life, I take the advice. I do what this person thinks would be best for me in my life. Now don't get me wrong, I appreciate advice, otherwise I wouldn't solicit it. However,I've come to the conclusion that I want to make my own decisions independent of anyone's opinions. In all reality, no one can tell me what I should do, what I believe, or how I should go about a certain situation.

This was actually sparked by a relatively small thing. My roommate suggested that I wear sandals because it was a sunny day. Even though I knew it would still be freezing (because in Logan, Utah sunshine does not equal warmth) I wore them. And frankly, I was kinda miserable. It was a fun idea, but not really what I wanted to do. By the end of the sunny but freezing day my toes hurt so bad I didn't want to move. And I do this a lot. I might even know that it's something I don't really want to do, but I do it anyway. The person giving the advice usually has my best interest at heart, but sometimes it's just not right for me, and I suppose I don't realize that.

I think I'm writing this so I can remember. I need to do what I want to do because I want to do it... if that makes sense, and I think writing it down helps. I don't want to do anything that I honestly don't want to do, or anything that doesn't fit in my life for me right now. I am done jumping face first into someone else's well meant advice. This includes wearing Chaco's in February just because it's sunny. I still love ya Fanky ;)
Friday, February 12, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Well, I guess it's February

So here is a collection of mushy love quotes that I like a lot. Happy Valentines Weekend!

(Most of these are on my facebook thing... oops. Also most of these are cliche and cheesy. Deal with it :D)

"You know how when you're listening to music playing from another room? And you're singing along because it's a tune that you really love? When a door closes or a train passes so you can't hear the music anymore, but you sing along anyway... then, no matter how much time passes, when you hear the music again you're still in exact same time with it. That's what love is like."- The movie Music from another room

"To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart, and to sing it to them when they have forgotten." - Anonymous

"Love is not blind -- it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
-Julian Weber Gordon

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return." -Moulin Rouge

To laugh often and love much... to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to give one's self... this is to have succeeded. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

The best portion of a good man's life,
His little, nameless, unremembered acts,
Of kindness and of love.
-William Wordsworth

Grow old along with me, the best is yet to be.
-Robert Browning

"One cannot refuse to eat just because there is a chance of being choked. --- Love is a great risk, but not loving is of greater risk - even though you may have been hurt badly before - a great love will come to you soon and you must be ready to accept it." - I stole this from Olivia and I don't know who said it

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one...lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket - safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."- C.S. Lewis

"There is no remedy for love but to love more." -Henry David Thoreau
Thursday, February 11, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

The Race

I've heard this poem more than once. It's always be in a church meeting and it's always just hit me. It's simple and straight forward, but it has a beautiful message. So today I share this with you my avid reader. It's a good one.

The Race

by D. H. Groberg

Whenever I start to hang my head in front of failure’s face,
my downward fall is broken by the memory of a race.
A children’s race, young boys, young men; how I remember well,
excitement sure, but also fear, it wasn’t hard to tell.

They all lined up so full of hope, each thought to win that race
or tie for first, or if not that, at least take second place.
Their parents watched from off the side, each cheering for their son,
and each boy hoped to show his folks that he would be the one.

The whistle blew and off they flew, like chariots of fire,
to win, to be the hero there, was each young boy’s desire.
One boy in particular, whose dad was in the crowd,
was running in the lead and thought “My dad will be so proud.”

But as he speeded down the field and crossed a shallow dip,
the little boy who thought he’d win, lost his step and slipped.
Trying hard to catch himself, his arms flew everyplace,
and midst the laughter of the crowd he fell flat on his face.

As he fell, his hope fell too; he couldn’t win it now.
Humiliated, he just wished to disappear somehow.
But as he fell his dad stood up and showed his anxious face,
which to the boy so clearly said, “Get up and win that race!”

He quickly rose, no damage done, behind a bit that’s all,
and ran with all his mind and might to make up for his fall.
So anxious to restore himself, to catch up and to win,
his mind went faster than his legs. He slipped and fell again.

He wished that he had quit before with only one disgrace.
“I’m hopeless as a runner now, I shouldn’t try to race.”
But through the laughing crowd he searched and found his father’s face
with a steady look that said again, “Get up and win that race!”

So he jumped up to try again, ten yards behind the last.
“If I’m to gain those yards,” he thought, “I’ve got to run real fast!”
Exceeding everything he had, he regained eight, then ten...
but trying hard to catch the lead, he slipped and fell again.

Defeat! He lay there silently. A tear dropped from his eye.
“There’s no sense running anymore! Three strikes I’m out! Why try?
I’ve lost, so what’s the use?” he thought. “I’ll live with my disgrace.”
But then he thought about his dad, who soon he’d have to face.

“Get up,” an echo sounded low, “you haven’t lost at all,
for all you have to do to win is rise each time you fall.
Get up!” the echo urged him on, “Get up and take your place!
You were not meant for failure here! Get up and win that race!”

So, up he rose to run once more, refusing to forfeit,
and he resolved that win or lose, at least he wouldn’t quit.
So far behind the others now, the most he’d ever been,
still he gave it all he had and ran like he could win.

Three times he’d fallen stumbling, three times he rose again.
Too far behind to hope to win, he still ran to the end.
They cheered another boy who crossed the line and won first place,
head high and proud and happy -- no falling, no disgrace.

But, when the fallen youngster crossed the line, in last place,
the crowd gave him a greater cheer for finishing the race.
And even though he came in last with head bowed low, unproud,
you would have thought he’d won the race, to listen to the crowd.

And to his dad he sadly said, “I didn’t do so well.”
“To me, you won,” his father said. “You rose each time you fell.”
And now when things seem dark and bleak and difficult to face,
the memory of that little boy helps me in my own race.

For all of life is like that race, with ups and downs and all.
And all you have to do to win is rise each time you fall.
And when depression and despair shout loudly in my face,
another voice within me says, “Get up and win that race!”
Wednesday, January 13, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Shakespeare...

Today I discovered why I haven't taken a Shakespeare class in over two years. It's because it is next to impossible to read, at least coherently. Here's how I started on my quest to reading The Taming of the Shrew.

First I read the character list.
Then started into the actual text.
Consulted Sparknotes.
Tried the text again.
Went to the dumbed down Sparknotes version of the character list.
Once again tried the text.
Sparknotes.
Finished the introduction and first act.

Needless to say this is going to be the most time consuming class of my life. If anyone has any tips for reading Shakespeare I would be eternally grateful.

And as a comedic side note, all I can ever think about in that class is a quote from Stardust- "My crew is thinking Shake Spear, where I'm thinking 18th century writer."
Monday, January 11, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

First Day of School!

Another Semester, another list :) Enjoy.

I think the sidewalks should be set up like roads, with a bike/longboard/skateboard lane and a fast lane and signs that say "slow traffic keep right." I also think it should be socially acceptable to make honking noises if someone cuts you of while walking and then continues to walk at a snails pace in freezing weather, and then makes it impossible to get around them. I'm just saying is all.

Today was a day where I didn't take offense to the fact that a girl asked me if she had met me before. I laughed and said "We've had a couple of classes together and we were in a group together for a project before." I didn't feel as bad cause I didn't remember her name.

Service Learning. I've decided that this is an ingenious program. I've done it before in a class last year and its great. You get class credit while helping some aspect of the community. I really like that cause since high school I've been a bit service deprived. All three years of high school I was up to my neck in every and any service project that Joshua Bagley could get his hands on, and since then I've missed being so submerged. I'm excited to do some service learning this semester.

Even if people walk slow in freezing cold Logan, I still love it here. The campus, the atmosphere I'm a little giddy over it :)

My life is full of awkward situations. And on a scale of one to ten on how well I handle those situations (ten being very well, and 1 being very poorly) I usually end up between -2 or 0. Today, however, I ran into a split second, potentially very awkward situation and I give myself at least a 7. Kudos to me for breaking a streak of awkward idiotness for an entire thirty seconds.

I've recently decided that being a college student means being pretty much a selfish being.** You don't have to plan around anyone else and you really don't even have to tell anyone what you're doing.

To re-emphasize what has already been stated at least 200 times, I am an English nerd. I sat in my Linguistics class, practically on the edge of my seat. I'm really excited about that one, a class just about words. How they sound, how you use them, and how they can work for you. If this isn't love, I don't know what is.

I hope this semester is as enjoyable as I'm anticipating it to be, and I also hope I don't die in my attempt to take a million classes (ok not really a million, but more than I've taken before.) At any rate, Happy First Day of Sprig Semester 2010!



**When I first wrote this sentence I wrote "... being a college stupid." Freudian slip? I think yes.
Sunday, January 10, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

The Zest of Life!

Today in a talk given in a church meeting of mine, I learned that hobbies are the zest of life. One example that was given for a hobby was writing. As I thought about the word 'zest' a funny memory popped into my head.

It's tradition in my family to make orange rolls. These are similar to cinnamon rolls, but instead of cinnamon you put orange zest in the middle. A few days before Christmas, a young family came over to our house and we had dinner. Afterwords we ate orange rolls. The oldest of the young family scrunched his nose and stated firmly "I think you put too much zest in this, it turned them quite bitter." The way he said it made me laugh, but he was right. That batch of orange rolls didn't turn out very well; they had too much zest. However, with just the right amount of zest these rolls are amazing.

So, here is to my zest in life. Writing, not too much, but not too little :)
Friday, January 1, 2010 | By: Megan K Leavitt

Movies That I Thought Were Going to be Cool so I Saw Them But They Turned Out to be Stupid and Now I'm Bitter

I decided to let my little brother write this because it made me laugh. So, have at it, Gavin.
(In order of suckiness)
1- Journey to the Center of the Earth
Dear Brandon Fraisier,
Please, for the love of your *cough*fans, stop making movies. Forever.
2- Eragon
Basically the worst 'book-to-movie' movie ever. Barf.
3- Knowing
GAAAHHHH! Plot...? Nicolas Cage...? Aliens...? Whatever.
4- Avatar
Hey, guys! We should make a multi-billion dollar, three-hour-long movie out of CGI with no plotline! Okay!

EDITOR'S NOTE: Please... Take this with a grain of rice. *wink*