My Life Today

"Oh no really, I insist... Let me go out of my way to make a fool of myself. I love feeling stupid. All the time." -Me

Also, the new blogger bugs me. I can't decide if I'm flattered or creeped out that more people look at my blog than I thought. Maybe I'll hold off on the creeped out feeling for a while. And if people really are looking at my blog, I feel like they should comment. Unless you don't know me, cause that freaks me out.

In addition it's a sunny beautiful day and all I can manage to do is sneeze and glare. Customers at work were not super happy with me about that.

I had more to say about the Old Navy, but the new blogger set up made me realize that my blog is pretty much open to the world so I'll keep it to myself. And all the poor random people that get to hear me rant about Old Navy.

Anyway, I have some quality time to spend with the couch and possibly some homework.

Dear Professional Teaching Portfolio,

I no longer care how these ten artifacts have "helped me to become a better teacher." I also don't think that I care that I have done a billion lesson plans, and now my reward is to reflect on how they help students and bla bla bla. Mostly I'm just sick of reflecting on artifacts. I've also heard that very few schools who are looking to hire you actually look at this portfolio. Needless to say my motivation to finish this is rapidly declining.

Sincerely,

I'd rather be outside

Distracted

So this is the second time that I have sat down to do homework today. I have a annotated bibliography of thirty texts due in a week, as well as a book talk to go along with that. Not to mention my professional teaching portfolio and probably two or three other things that I am forgetting. But the minute I sit to a computer, what do I do?

I listen to this song a billion times...

It's a great song. I hope that you see right through my walls.

I've also been on a Dr. Pepper kick. I'm not sure what it is about the last few weeks of school, but ever since my second semester I crave Dr. Pepper the last month of school. Maybe so I can stay awake? I don't think it's been working this semester. I've just increased my intake of sugar by like a billion. You know how some foods advertise on the label something like "Good Source of Calcium"? I think Dr. Pepper should say "Good Source of Calories. And nothing else."

I've also been doing this cool thing where I will get halfway through one thing and then suddenly have the overwhelming urge to start something else. So I have all of my homework started, but I have little to no faith in my ability to follow through on them.

In other news, my roommate and I really want to go to California for a kind of senior trip. Disneyland is calling my name.

Anyway, I'm off to start something else without actually finishing it. Woot woot.

Looking Back

I feel like the last month has gone by really quickly, and I've found myself looking back to where I was even just two months ago and honestly there's only one thing that comes to mind as I've been looking back.

Freak, I'm glad I'm not there anymore!

I think the last month has flown by mostly because I have felt happy. Now don't get me wrong, I get tired n grumpy like the rest of the world; however, comparatively speaking this last month has been exceptionally happier than the six previous ones. I still feel like I'm gaining new friendships and no longer spending quality time with my couch and Lil Heaty (who, by the way, might be on his last leg. I would cry harder [note that I say harder, not in the first place] except for the fact that he has slowly been phased out of my life. R.I.P Lil Heaty. Maybe you represent a bigger, sadder, former life that I have now left behind). Anyway, what I really mean to say is that things are looking up. I am excited for the summer and the List of Things to Do Summer 2012 (I capitalize it because it will soon be an actual document, it's in the works). I am ready to be happy full time. And to the past, once again: FREAK, I am glad I'm not there anymore! :D

A Challenge to Be

I have a professor in the eduction department that always tells us to have our students become, rather than just do a subject area. She tells us to have students be scientists if you are teaching science, to be mathematicians in math, and in English to be writers and critical readers. In my opinion this is a good way for students to learn a subject. This approach teaches children to find passion in a subject and to make connections; however, I don't think my main goal with teaching is to create writers, but to create real thinking feeling people in the classroom. Don't get me wrong, I am a proponent of reading and writing, but I would rather have a student discover something vital about themselves or the world around them than have them remember how to use a semi-colon correctly.

Often times in the public eduction system I see tests being administered and all I can think is that we are creating robots. We put information into these students and expect them to reproduce it. I don't want to create robots, the Apple store is doing enough of that on its' own. I want to create humans: critical thinking, question asking, ever wondering, discovering humans.

Sometimes I think we (teachers) forget that students still have life and they have real things to deal with. This came abruptly to my view as I was observing in a Psychology class for my clinical hours. In the course of two class periods during an opener entitled "Free Advice Friday" we discussed what one would do when faced with a degenerative hip disorder as an athlete. We also talked about how one might confront a friend who might be causing themselves bodily harm (also known as cutting). This made me wonder how we (again as teachers) are preparing students to cope with life, instead of just memorizing the parts of the brain. These instances, along with other conversations and thoughts lead me to believe that in my classroom I want to create people who can discover and think, be compassionate and self aware, as well as see beyond themselves to look through another's eyes. If they happen to learn how to properly use a semi-colon, that'd be cool too.

What Happens in Nevada...

Ends up on my blog.

This past week I had my first ever out of state Spring Break Adventure, which is kinda sad considering I'm a senior in college. I guess better late than never. Anyway, I went to the illustrious town of Panaca, Nevada. Never heard of it? Odd... Well it is a quaint town about an hour Southwest of Cedar City. Still not sure where it is? That's ok, suffice it to say it's small (Population of 4016, Elevation 1000 according to Gwen). This was definitely a magical place where time does weird things and phones (at least T-mobile phones) cease to function. You are probably begging for some highlights at this point so I will gladly oblige. How will I do this? A list of course!

Day 1

The drive up was definitely excellent, full of stimulating conversation and bunnies.

"You have really straight teeth for not having braces. You also have a really nice gum line" -Preston

"Scipio!? I think there is a petting zoo at scipio... or a gas station. I'm pretty sure it's a petting zoo though." -Preston

"Hey Dad, we made it to Arizona." -Me
"I thought you were going to Nevada?" -My Dad
"Oh, yeah. We made it to that one." -Me

Hiking was a big part of this trip. We spent the vast majority of Monday in the car and then at Cathedral Gorge where we climbed over, through, and around dried mud piles.

"I've just got these bodacious hips!" -Amy

Day 2

"What time is it? My phone doesn't know." -Me

Pioche, which sounds like a swear.

"Stop your piochin'."
"You're such a Pioche!"
"Ok, I should probably stop saying that cause it really does sound like a swear word" -Preston

We found a couple little shops that were fun to look around. Most of them had a lot of weird porcelain dolls.

"There's a girl in our ward who collects coke bottles" -Preston
"Uh... Yup" -Me

"'Paradise Found.' Are they quoting something or is it a joke?" -Gwen

"I still don't know what time it is... It's driving me crazy!" -Me

"Carol Mathews" -Preston
"What?" -Me
"Carol Mathews"
"What...?"
"CAROL... MATHEWS"
"What!?"
"She owns the bed and breakfast..."

The Drive home was mostly a compilation of repeating CD's over and over again, as well as a pit stop in Richfield, Ut. Overall this was a great trip. If I get more technologically advanced in the next few weeks I will post pictures (along with the fact that I will have to steal them off of someone else's computer). I hope you enjoyed the recap of the trip as much as I enjoyed writing it. Have a great day!

More Stuff From My Head

Again, I've thought of too many things in one day that I figure I should write down. The only medium I can think of to get my thoughts out there? A list! On my blog of course. You knew it was coming.

Cars are so annoying; however, parents are the greatest thing that were ever created. Especially when your car breaks down again and all you can think to do is call and cry to them about the fact that you hate cars, and then they tell you everything is going to be all right and they will help pay for the second clutch your car needs after only a two year old one breaks. Parents are the greatest, mine are the greatest of the great.

I'm a kid, and I like kid kind of explanations. For instances, a seven-year-old explains love this way: "'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." I think that is great :D

Things really do work out. Doesn't matter how much you stress about any given thing, they always work out well. I've been doing a lot of the "what if-ing" this week and suddenly I had the thought "Yeah, and what if the sky fell right on top of my head right now!?" and then I stopped playing that game because I know things are going to work out just the way they are supposed to. Having that knowledge is really helpful, even though I forget it all the time, it's good to know.

Generally, life is good. Regardless of missing class, and not feeling well for a couple days, turns out life is still great.

I'm happy to report happiness. I have good friends and the amazing opportunity to live, learn and grow. I think it's great.